this is going to negatively affect the shrimp population ):
thinking about when my brother called me 'hard to love.' like. yup. so true, my dude.
I love being genderqueer. :)
And if you wanna die miserable and alone be my fucking guest. But choosing hate and choosing cruelty is only gonna come back to you 10 fold, asshole
watching this guy play minecraft for the first time with no wiki or help is so wonderfully relaxing and fun and joyful. seriously so beautiful. how can i be sad when shit like this exists? when gamers all bond over the universal truth: furnace next to crafting table = home
its morning so my whimsy bar is full once again ^u^ idfk who that guy was last night. wasnt me i swear
I need a better therapist so fucking bad
after 10pm each night i undergo a horrific, bloodcurdling transformation............. i become a pessimist.
Gotta stop looking at romantic stuff... the yearning is too strong...
its so beautiful how minecraft brings so many people together. so many people living a universal truth and bonding over this wonderful piece of media. and then the end poem is like "thats the whole point" and oughhhh my heart.... i love minecraft so much. i love PEOPLE so much. <3 :)
Watching someone play minecraft for the first time with no knowledge of it and no wiki. Its so fucking refreshing to see someone so full of whimsy :")
So sick ))):::
im such a wife guy. just need a wife......
in my restless dreams.... i see that town. silent hill. you promised me you'd take me there again someday. but you never did. well, i'm alone there now... in our "special place." waiting for you...
james sunderland DIE challenge!!!! THIS GUY STINKS!!!!!!!!
In a really bad mood......
Been feeling to bad to make food lately umu
drawing challenge with my brother :) feels nice to bond
Pearl (su) how I love you...........
life is worth living
Minecraft end poem making me cry again fr...... I fucking love minecraft.........
reading catching fire and every time someone flirts with katniss, i deserve a million dollars as compensation. piSSING ME OFF!!!!!!!!
Thinking about Juliet (psych 2006) RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... I love her i love her i love her
Stuck between needing to vent and not feeling comfortable with my therapist. But also being too nervous to switch therapists at risk of hurting her feelings. Lmao. Fml. :)
Tired of being nice </3 want to go apeshit. Sick of putting others before myself emotionally. Want to yell and scream.
LADS.... Xavier is good methinks.
Thinking about FFXV fishing. FFXV fishing my beloved.....
(From Me to You liveblogging) this show is pissing me off
(From Me to You liveblogging) im going to chew my soda can please just make them happy im sick of this
Just found out that I share a favorite pizza order (pineapple and olive btw, which is so fucking specific and weird and NOT COMMON AT ALL) with Wade Wilson, who is a massive comfort character and I will be living on this high for days.
(From Me To You liveblogging) kurumi is actually so good I do really like her. Gives taiga vibes from toradora, who i also like :) daughters.
My two fave animes being about autistic girls finding more about their feelings and how to process them, especially their love for others? If I had a nickel.....
(From Me To You liveblogging) have you heard of pretty and popular dis-privilege?? So hard our here... I hate being so hot and having so many friends
No one knows more wrath than a high school girl... (From Me To You liveblogging)
Break time today :)
He could fix me (make me worse)
Supposed to be asleep but instead im thinking about wade wilson... I love him so much...
re: last
seriously. the amount of happy stimming i do while watching is ridiculous. i literally love these kids so much- all such babies!!!! ;u;
watching 'from me to you' and its so cute im cryingggggg
feeling good today, despite the past few days being hard. excited to yap with my bestie and play silly little games. might even draw! the day is young :)
got lots to do today... again... but hopefully my life settles down in a short while. i just want a regular schedule back, at least. i'm fine with staying busy, but i would like it to be consistent, y'know?
gonna cry myself to sleep Again because i'm spreading myself too thin. it makes me so angry that this is what my limit looks like when people around me don't have the luxury to even have those limits at all. i wish i wasn't so broken. i just want to fix everything.
Re: last post.
And what's worse is that I feel bad for him. He treats me as an equal, on a level emotional playing field, not as a son, because he doesn't have friends or a partner that he feels comfortable burdening with it. And I hate that for him. He has no outlet for this frustration and he's handling it the best he can. And getting upset with him for asking me to provide it feels cruel of me.
He needs me to be there for him in a way no one else is even offering to be, and it hurts. It sucks so bad that I cant be that person all the time. I hate the fact I can' handle it. I hate that I can't fix everything.
Frustrating that I have to calm my trauma responses to appease others when they are triggering me. That I'm not allowed to get upset, rightfully so, because it would make the situation worse. And that even in a scenario in which the person is meant to be the bigger person, I have to step up instead. Sick of having a friendship with my parental figures instead of a familial relationship in which I am meant to be cared for in emotionally charged situations.
guests visiting the house but i'm feeling so overwhelmed and the last thing i want to do right now is entertain someone. especially since i've been doing nothing but things for Other People all week. i just want to be selfish. but i feel like there's not space for me to do that in a healthy way. so... isolation it is. 👍
testing this out maybe
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